Today, my heart is a wee bit heavy yet filled with gratitude as I reflect on this day. It marks the anniversary of my dear brother Ed’s passing three years ago and my ordination thirty-six years ago. This duality of grief and recognition brings a unique complexity to my emotions.
Losing a sibling is a profound sorrow that leaves an indelible mark on your soul. Ed was more than a biological brother to me; he was a fellow believer, a friend, and a source of imaginative ideas and loyal support to all his friends. His faith in God was a beacon of light during his most challenging times, providing him the courage to face adversity with grace and strength.
When I think of Ed, I often think of flying. Our last time together in Vancouver, hours were spent plane-watching. You see Ed was an air cadet as a youth, a pilot, and a balloon pilot. However, it was on MS Flight Sim that he logged the most miles. He showed me how we could be online together even at a distance, and while doing that, he suddenly appeared inverted beside me in a Top Gun kind of manouver. After his physical mobility was limited, he followed all my flights, asked me to send him the flight number, and then tracked me online to my destination.
One cherished memory I often revisit is our Sunday video chats – all three brothers on a video chat where we talked for hours about life, memories, very different experiences growing up with the same parents, and our shared faith. Those moments were simple yet profoundly meaningful, a testament to our bond. I miss his laughter, his creative often crazy ideas, and his gentle spirit every single day.
As I also celebrate my ordination anniversary today, I am reminded how deeply intertwined these are. Ed’s unwavering belief in my calling and constant encouragement played a significant role in my journey to becoming a minister, mentor and leader.
This day will always be a poignant reminder of loss and love, of pain and purpose. Though Ed is no longer with us, his legacy lives on in the lives he touched and in the faith that continues to guide me.
May all who have lost a brother or sister find strength in our memories and inspiration in our shared journeys.
PS: In the Mentored Podcast, Martin Sanders and I have two conversations about grief that you may find helpful.
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